There is a scripture I have been pondering recently.
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!" ~ Isaiah 6:8
I am feeling a bit like Isaiah these days. I am not saying in any way that I feel that I am a prophet. What I am comparing is feeling a focused calling of the Lord on my life. There was such an obedience in Isaiah when he was commissioned to be a prophet for the Lord, but in addition to obedience, there seemed to me to be excitement of things to come (notice the exclamation mark at the end of his declaration of "Send Me!" in my NIV translation). Now the remainder of the book of Isaiah shares that the majority of the time that Isaiah shared the Lord's prophecies, they were met with resistance and rejection. This doesn't seem to give a lot to be excited about. But there can be great excitement in simply being obedient to your calling into service for our great God and knowing, no matter the cost, that the Lord is leading every step of the way. Surrender is a very exciting place to be!
Far too often in my life I will feel what I call a "heart tug" by the Holy Spirit to move into action for the Lord, but instead of meeting that prompting with a response that can end with an exclamation mark, I turn from it, and sadly, do nothing. Why? Because it is easy. Because I am lazy. Because I have fear. Because I worry what others will think. Because I like my little life in this little box that I have created. My prayers tend to reflect this theme. "Lord, please protect my family..." Why? Jesus stepped out in ultimate humiliation and pain for us. Why should I pray for protection? Why not pray for the excitement to be radically used by Him to make a difference in this world for His glory?
There is a song I love that says, "You won't relent until you have it all. My heart is yours." I am so thankful that my God will not relent and give up on me. That He keeps chasing after me, until I am obedient and surrender. So, this is where I am...
I choose to put my whole life in the Lord's hands. I choose to allow this mighty God who created the whole universe and still knows every hair on my head to show me where He wants me. I choose to follow. I choose to trust. No matter the cost, I choose to Go!
I have found my exclamation mark!